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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us….And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

~ Marianne Williamson

i came across the above quote again as a glanced back on my posts from last year. it always intrigued me, but i could never quite understand it. not ‘understand’ as the mind does, but understand as you do when you see the glorious sunrise and tremble in awe of the knowledge of your Creator.

and now in this place, every word jumps out like a flip-book cartoon animating before my eyes

it is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us i was comfortable staying in the darkness rather than risk facing the exposure of the light. who wouldn’t? i thought that i had something. i thought it was all i’d have. but i was wrong. so very very wrong.

at the core of every mistrust is the fear that something is a lie; that somehow you’re being held out on. i thought that God was deeply mistaken- there was no more than what i am now and i’m hanging on to it, i’m HAPPY with this dammit, leave me alone!

but i wasn’t happy. i was nowhere close to being happy. i wanted to get out of the cage i had put myself in, but it was like i had put the key in a padlocked bag, hid it in a secret vault with a 10-combination lock and spent the rest of the time asking around if anyone had seen it.

ahh the irony of it all :)

only a God of patience could slowly but surely chip away the wall of deceit, find me, hold me, and open my eyes to see that the freedom to be me, mine for the ‘becoming’.

ok, so i might’ve written it more dramatically than a more straightforward person would’ve…but i think it’s only in inspecting the very depths of our frail humanity, that we can begin to comprehend the extent of His love. so this is my take on it – selah. :

…and when you’re done?…dance!! dance, dance, daaaaaance. :)

i celebrate You Jesus; the power of your truth and the untamed measure of your goodness.

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